My dear princess, Hana Arissa @ kakak Ica, happy 3rd birthday 😍😍😍

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It’s been three years already since I was blessed with this bundle of joy.. Watching you grow my princess, amazes me how smart and silly u can be. 

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Still remember  3 years back, early morning before Fajr we went to hospital..I had strong contraction dat morning.. No leaking or show yet.. This time, we were more calm than last year. (oops.. Poor spacing 🙈🙈)  

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How time flies.. I am thankful having u my dear.. U will always be my first daughter. 

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U already have such a big personality Hana Arissa and I am so proud of u. 

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Thank you for giving me a chance to breastfed u till 2 years… It is very heartbroken weaning u off.. 😭😭😭

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Mama & papa wish u all the success in life and remember we love u and will always be here for u

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Nnt kite celebrate ur birthday ye sayang.

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Lots of love from us,  

MamaPapaAbgzaimBabyzayyan

😘😘😘

#throwback

Since tomorrow one of my friend punye engagement, saja nak throwback 6 years ago punyer ceriter.. Ahaks~~

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Ingat lagi, masa tu nak kena report duty dah.. End of Disember.. Kalut la kita ni pun nk bertunang.. Hahaha 

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Amik kesempatan cuti krismas masa tue, my engagement day the next day 26dec2010..bkn nk ceriter pasal engagement day sgt pun.. Tp memory after that

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Memandangkan all family members ada after engagement tu & nak report duty pulak dekat penang.. Sume pakat nak ikut.. Wahahaha.. Kalu ikut kan abang and kak bush (my second sister)  plus parents je hantar.. Sbb nk bawa kereta kelisa jauh kan sampai penang, abg drive keta itu.

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Abah belanja semua org.. Bilik hotel tambah lagi 2 haha.. Anak2 buah sume ikut.. Happening sungguh, yg kerja sume amik cuti.. Follow la dari shah alam ke penang.. Register dekt komtar then seberang jaya pulak.. Hantar smpi hostel bile dh settle segala urusan 

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Tak dpt di track gmbr masa tu.. Amik gmbr depan pokok krismas.. Klu jumpa kt upload later ya~~

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Dah lama sebenarnye tak pakai engagement ring ni sbb dia ada batu.. Dulu kan anak2 kecik2 lg, asyik tersangkut je kt depa.. Plus masa kerja rasa tak sesuai 

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Tp sebab cincin yg len agak ketat (🙈🙉🙊), plus rindu nk pakai ..pakai la 24/7 skang haha

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N one of my patient’s mum (patient = 1year 6 months old boy) tegur few days ago, ‘cantik la cincin.. Custom made ke dr?’ 

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Haha. Balik2 terus tanya husbnd, custom made ke?  Tak katanya. 

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Abaikan tanganku yang huduh itu.. Haha

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Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar esok, my dear friend… Amin 

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Tata 

Alhamdulillah, at 1005pm i safely delivered a baby boy. 

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No cries heard. Both my senior & my husband didn’t say a word.. Both in silent. 

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Quickly, they showed me the gender.. N bring him to resus.. Call paeds MO oncall (pegawai perubatan kanak2 yg bertugas atas panggilan). 

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I was taken over by midwife while they help in resusscitating my boy. Pray hard he’ll be safe. 

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After a while, my husband came…telling me, baby cries after they resus him, not intubated… ask me to be ready.. He showed me photo of him. 

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Couldn’t say a word.. Couldn’t cry also… No expression

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B. L. U. N. T

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Cornelia de Lange syndrome

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Never heard of it, never came across it

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Allahuakbar. 

Allahuakbar. 

Allahuakbar. 

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😑

5 months back, I gave birth to a lovely little boy.. Same date as his brother, 22nd july

Giving birth to him was totally a different experience compared to previous pregnancy… 

This is d middle part of story & i warn this entry a bit long.. Haha. 

I was admitted earlier for IM dexamethasone and induction after seen at specialist clinic at 37weeks 2 days.
Alhamdulillah.. Completed IM dexa x 2 before any symptoms of labour. Earlier S&S done with os 3cm but head was still high up at that time. Praying hard, hoping his head will descend before induction 🙏🙏🙏 

Allah knows the best…Takut la jugak nk kena induce .. There’s always be a first time for everything 😂 

After Subuh prayer, i got  myself ready for checkup… CTG done.. Not much changes compared to admission CTG.. No contraction (ctg ni adalah utk check jantung baby and berkadar dgn contraction mak.. Correct me if im wrong ok.. Lama dah tinggal)  

As expected, i was induced x 2…means 2 kali ubat masuk.. Dgn selang masa 6jam..no contraction yet.. Bole relax2 lg makan ketupat and sate yang my staff bawakan masa friday lunch break as that day ada jamuan hari raya mega pejabat daerah kami.. Ptg pulak husband dtg dgn anak2,MIL & aunty bawa sebijik kek celebrate besday abang 👇

Habis waktu melawat, lepas maghrib, ready for last checkup.. Nak tengok progress tak… Os still same, 3cm..dgn rela hati dan pasrah ready utk 3rd prostin coming morning if tak bersalin jugak 😬😬😬

On the way balik dr examination room, start dah rasa contraction.. Jln slowly sampai bilik but tak bole duduk, went back to get a chair to sit… Sit on a chair.. Time contraction sendiri, getting stronger sampai tak bole nak bangun..hubsy plak p balik mandi, luckily tangan bole menaip lagi.. Watapps my senior, Dr F who is oncall dat day… Luckily, she came. 

Initially nk bgn perform my isya’ prayers but sudden gush of fluid plus show burst out.. Directly asking to go to labour room.. 😅😅

At 10pm-ish (x ingt exact time, nnt kena g tgk buku balik 😅)  i safely delivered a baby boy…i expected i could hear him crying and hold him… But Allah knows best

To be continued….in part 2 

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See ya.. Tata.